I'm worried I'll never find something like this again.
I've never found anything like it before, iono if I can find it again.
There was something about it that was just different from everything else. I can't really put it into words. Things just really worked, like there was a compatible mindset; you could tell what was on each other's mind and what was happening.

The cure for things like this is time though, like there really isn't anything that can be done. It's still really hard, especially getting out of this mindset :(
Things are okay though - like it was all on good and friendly terms.
I'm really glad to have Stella as my best friend :)
That's one thing I would never ever change. I'd rather eat a man's stomach filled with cyanide and children's tears than never ever talk to her again.

I do really hope things will improve and mend with time.

It's kind of got me thinking about Love. How it changes over time and how complex it is. It's pretty scary. Opening yourself up like that and wandering bravely and boldly forward into unknown despite the everlasting risk of rejection and intense aching pain. It's worth it I think. Maybe I'm just an overly emotional person but I think it's the best feeling in the world.