Stranger.

Sometimes I really confuse myself. Like as to what's going on and what's happening.
I've felt really distant with everyone I know; friends and family. There is no real reason for it either. It's almost like I feel into a coma for a few weeks and just woke up and everyone has changed dramatically and I can't keep up with it. Like yesterday when I saw Ben. Don't get me wrong, it was a really fun day. Something just seemed off though, like he wasn't the exact same Ben I know.
It's actually really scary, like I've reverted back into my shell and have become really timid. Like that feeling you get when you don't know answer to something at school but feel too scared to ask the teacher? I feel like I have a million questions for all my friends and family and I'm just too scared to ask them. They're not bad or intrusive questions, more so just what's on your mind right now and what are you up to?
Maybe it's just tricky time, a lot of people I'm close to have gone through changes and I might just be trying to catch up with all of them. I'm a bit worried I'm just being a big, selfish baby. Constantly prodding and annoying everyone, whining and destroying.

I'm going to try and get a moment alone with everyone and just catch up. Quell these fears and just get back on the right track. I'm pretty scared about it though. That feeling were you have to tip-toe around, minding your feet and being careful you don't knock anything over.
I wonder if everyone knows me as well?
Maybe this sort of thing happens to everyone and I'm not really alone.