This blog is falling somewhat into disrepair now.
I'm not sure, part of me doesn't feel too comfortable expressing all my thoughts so publicly anymore.
The other day I bought a brand new journal as a sort effort to start fresh with a clean slate. So far I've brought it with me everywhere. I quite like the idea of always being able to write down my thoughts and feelings, as well as elaborate on a story as it comes to me.

It looks a little bit like this, only with smaller polka dots haha.

I've also almost finished my first proper zine. It's really exciting, I literally can't wait to go to be photocopying outlet and start copying it and stapling all the pages together. Writing it has made me feel a bit better lately, it's sort of been an outlet similar to a blog but there is that sense of pride of having made something completely by yourself.

I realise over the last few weeks I've progressed into being a massive, ungrateful, moody dick >.<
I'm just not the best person at coping and tackling change head on. I honestly do feel awful for it all. I realise I'm making things worse not better. I just don't know how to become a good person again.

Edit: I realised the paradox in me saying I don't feel too comfortable expressing all my feelings on this blog anymore, yet I'll do it through a zine. There is something different about the zine though; it's more of a work of fiction if anything. Just a story for people to read, there are no names or any facts that would give anything non-fictional away.